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A general update.

I can’t remember the last that I sat down and attempted to put any real thought to paper, so to speak, regarding my current situation or my general state of existence in awhile aside from what I end up cryptically tweeting about, so I’m going to give that a shot with this post. I’ll try to write out as much as comes immediately to mind as I can.

  • This blog, bcarr.me
    As far as this blog and what I’m working on here, I definitely realize I’ve slacked off on writing posts and keeping active like I had been originally. I feel like I should be writing a lot more but I think that since I started the podcast, however, I think that penning the thoughts that I share in any given episode of the podcast to a post in the blog would be redundant, all things considered.

  • Fiction writing, incoming
    However, I do have some ideas for longer form writing based on the kick of fiction writing that I see in my Twitter timeline and Medium feed lately. I’m going to add some fiction writing into the mix in the form of a project I’m calling Project Atlas. The concept is instead of taking established characters and crossing them up or summarizing their stories, I’ll attempt to explain the history and importance of a key location from a classic gaming story. My first write up will feature an important location from Front Mission, Huffman Island.

  • Podcast production status
    I released the twenty-third episode of the lowercase esports podcast on Saturday and I think that I’ve finally established a decent production schedule and habit to keep on making episodes. They’re not really being downloaded a lot, but I can say we’re in double digits for users subscribed to the feed using the direct download options (RSS and iTunes). While I haven’t really felt comfortable having guests on the show yet and the extended editions aren’t exactly working out as well when I try to plan them, I’m still enjoying producing the show with a ten-to-fifteen minute episode goals for one topic. I will begin enriching the podcast episode notes to include more information about the source of content mentioned in the show.

  • Realistic expectations for myself
    I don’t want to admit that I’m old compared to a lot of folks that I run into playing the types of games that I do, but I think I am. I don’t have the physical ability to maintain a short sleep schedule so I can play games until two-o’clock in the morning to keep up with the West Coast friends of mine. I’m certainly not any better than “marginally above average” when it comes to skill at most games. This is most apparent in my current CSGO skill grouping, at Gold Nova Master, just on the declining side of the bell curve of skill.

  • Depression
    Not to be too melodramatic about my own mental health, but I think it’s safe to say that I’ve been experiencing a bit of uselessness combined with worthlessness when it comes to self-evalutation. You don’t have to tell me that it’s wrong to think that way, but when I make the clumsy mistake going about everyday tasks, I definitely question my own ability as a human being. Fair to say that I’m working through it, and it’s not as if I’m helpless–it’s just a phase. I’ll get over it, but it’s just one of those things that I thought I’d throw out there.

So, that’s an update on everything that I can think of. I’m still working out the best way to record and/or stream a few PS/PS2 RPGs that I’d like to give a full playthrough to, but that will certainly happen at the cost of CSGO/regular gaming time.

Is GotFrag worth saving?

What GotFrag has essentially become.

When I think back to when I started trying to cover Team Fortress 2 with a series of video briefs covering the North American competitive scene, GotFrag wasn’t a news source anymore, but it was the place where near daily troll-a-thons occupied its forums.

Even so, these trolls weren’t simply blowhards in the community, but they were the ace players in the scene. Perhaps that’s why the TF2 community held on to the GF forums longer than some of the other games have?

When I started writing content for CommunityFortress, I was also given the keys to the GotFrag TF2 community as well. Looking back on it now, I really should’ve use them more and gotten to know the celebrities in the community, but I didn’t.

When I look at what GotFrag was I remember a pretty decent venue for esports when FPS was king. Since then it seems to be brought up whenever Major League Gaming’s CEO needs a little humbling, only to become the butt of a joke acquisition that MLG made before his time at the helm of the league.

Even though there’s probably not a lot of people that will end up reading this, I’d like to help rebuild what GotFrag used to be.

Now, that doesn’t necessarily mean that I want to rebuild a GotFrag brand, but perhaps I could help build up another brand that deserves its place in the spotlight for a change—ESFI springs to mind.

ESFI World. A site that's not dead.

The question that I’ve been haunted by—well, not really haunted by… the mind-thesaurus seems to be a bit broke, at the moment—is simple: what can I do for esports? is there anything that I can say, write or keep track of that’s not already being said, written or kept track of?

I feel like that was what GotFrag was for the FPS scene in general. That’s what TeamLiquid is for StarCraft. That’s what sites like Rakaka was for and sites like ESFI are doing now. Do I just throw in to one of those organizations and hope I can contribute something worthwhile?

Or do I just continue writing my own thoughts right here?

Or do I troll the fuck out of some TF2 baddies on GotFrag right now?